I am learning to trust the process
As autumn leaves fall from trees
Firmly rooted in the ground
I am learning,
Though strength comes from an inward place,
Even strong roots have to drop dead weight.
I am learning to embrace sweat
Trickled down by summer’s heat,
That temptation, a succulent fruit
But denial, the sweetest juice.
I am learning to dance in rain –
That May’s showers bring wisdom
That may enhance joy within
I am learning to trust coolness in air
When Earth stands still,
Embraces chill from winter falling
I am learning to trust you:
When you say you love me + don’t mean it,
Want me + can’t prove it,
Kiss me + I can taste her cherry chapstick on your lips
I am learning to trust my intuition
That has led me to you
To this experience
That is teaching me
Love is patient
And will never be fully mine
Because we never fully belong to who we give ourselves to
Not by infidelity
But this love, an inward journey
Your love has taught me to trust little things you don’t say
Appreciate little things you don’t do
For within these moments,
I have found myself
Worthier than I deemed you.
So, what shall I call this chapter?
I think I’ll call this The Book of Life.
And no, it’s not a “chapter name”,
But it’s a start to an end I don’t know will finish
But I trust the process
For it has always guided me