I hate New Year’s Resolutions. I hate how I feel like no one ever follows through on them. I hate when people are like “New Year, New Me” knowing damn well it’s a new year but it’s not a new them. SO, that being said, I’m not going to term this a list of resolutions. (I don’t like setting myself up to fail.) I’m just going to term this a list of things I’ll be working on in the coming year.
2015| body/appearance positivity
2015| just doing it
2015| selectivity – Friends. Relationships. If 2014 taught me anything, it taught me what I deserve from the people I choose to have in my life. I’m not going to elaborate but if I spend 2015 only having 3 friends and no romantic relationships – please know, it was by design and I’m fine. I have to stop pouring so much of myself into people that don’t pour back into me – never have and never intended to. And I’ve got to stop thinning myself to make the people around me, especially of the male species, comfortable. Everybody doesn’t deserve everything. So, everybody isn’t going to get it. A wise friend of mine recently told me that “You’re not intimidating (ie: too much, too strong, too WHATEVER) to those who are worthy.” #mottofor2015thankyouverymuch
2015| body/appearance positivity – I have this weird thing where I’m surprised when people find me attractive (not because I don’t think I am but because I think of myself in other ways first) andddddddd I should stop it. I’ve only got this one body, face, head of hair. I should love on it and take care of it more – meaning getting enough sleep, eating well, working out, and deep conditioning. LOL
2015| travel – I have 2 more continents to see and I’m determined to do so before I graduate. Australia and South America I’m coming for youuuuu! There will also HOPEFULLY be some Lit Mami’s trips coming your IG feed soon. #waitonit
2015| just doing it – Something I struggled with in 2014 is Imposter Syndrome. It basically means I never thought I was good enough or felt like all of my opportunities would be taken away from me because I didn’t actually have the goods to back what people think of me up. But, what I’ve learned this year is that, that’s not true. I am so intelligent, capable, thankful for, and worthy of every opportunity that comes my way or that I create and I need to start living like it. This means no talking myself out of applying for things or going places. By no means do I think I’ll get everything I set out to – but I won’t know unless I try and I very well might get everything I want.
2015| improvements – the only place to go, is up. I learned so much this year and I’m just excited to see what all of the growing pains lead to.
I hope your last few days of 2014 are as amazing as you are. Here’s to all that 2015 will bring. Happy New Year!
PS: I have a feeling, that myself and a lot of the people I love are going to get everything we’ve been waiting for/wanting in the coming year. It’s going to be a good one for me. I hope it is for you too.
I’m thankful for the darkness… because, wow.. I really can appreciate the light..