"No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it." - Hebrews 12:11
I don't know why I'm writing this other than the fact that my spirit told me to and the events of the past hour can just only be explained by my spirit and the verse above. And I think someone needs to read this. I know someone needs to read this. I'm currently at home in Michigan and went to lunch today with a good friend of mine. As we were catching up we both started talking about how we just need to work on our discipline. You know - acting and doing accordingly. We both know that God is trying to meet us halfway with somethings in our lives, in order to take us to higher heights and we really just have to get it together and do our part. I always feel both energized and down after conversations like this because they're a reminder that nothing is standing in the way of my hopes and dreams but me.
Anyway, we finish our food and get in our cars to drive home. Now, I'm in Michigan that often anymore so sometimes I forget where I am or how to get places, but today, I knew exactly where I was and exactly how I thought (key word being thought) I was going to go home. Of course, that's not how things ended up happening. I get on the freeway and let me just say that I-275 in Novi is my least favorite freeway in Michigan. I successfully get from I-275 to M-14 because I mean I'm going back to Ypsi/Ann Arbor and this is the route to take. But then, I hear my spirit tell me to get off the freeway and I'm like okay maybe there's an accident up there or it's raining bad and something bad will happen if I stay on the freeway so, I listen but not right away. I go up one more exit than it told me to and I get off. I then turn to the right even though my spirit is telling me to go left because I know where I'm going and I know best.. only to realize shortly thereafter that I'm going back in the direction from whence I came. So, I turn around and go in the other direction. I'm like okay God, I should have listened. My bad. I'm thinking I'm going to stay on Beck Road all the way to Michigan Ave and then be good money. NOPE. I end up going on Beck until I reach a road closed sign and I'm like GREATTTTT, I vaguely know where I am but I'm not sure. The spirit says turn right, so I turn right. And I end up on Ann Arbor Rd. which eventually turns into Plymouth Rd. Mind you, this whole time I'm not even sure if I'm going in the right direction and don't really recognize the landmarks around me even though I know I've been over on this side of town before. I keep driving and start to recognize cross streets and then I see a sign that says entering Washtenaw County which is where I live so I know I'm going the right way. (Why I couldn't just trust that the Spirit wouldn't lead me in the wrong direction I don't know..) I continue on my way and to be honest I'm starting to get annoyed.. and I'm thinking to myself, I should just get out my phone's GPS and route a faster way home. But, something in me won't reach for the phone. So, I keep driving and I pass Prospect Rd. which I know will get me home. I almost turn down it but again something won't let me.. and I end up right back at M-14... the freeway I got off at this point 20 minutes ago because my spirit told me to. I get on the ramp towards Ann Arbor, merge onto US-23 and coast on home. I hit the exit I usually do and even though something is telling me not to get off there, I don't listen. I get off the freeway only to hit major traffic on Michigan Avenue so I get BACK on the freeway, go up to the exit I was told to get off at originally, and make my way home.
Weird right? Well, not really because this is where the lesson and the verse above come in. God's been dealing with me with regards to discipline all summer and while I haven't totally been floundering, I haven't been doing everything that I'm supposed to. I know that and He knows that. I've asked for things that I know God wants to allow me to receive if I would only do my part- meet Him where He's asking me to. And you know why I had to drive in what seems like a long, convoluted circle today? Because He was showing me that He and I both know what I have to do to get what I want. The path is right there- all laid out. But, if I keep dilly dallying around, not listening, and thinking I know what's best, then I'm going to end up off course and close to but far away from the desires of my heart - it's going to take me longer to reach them. And, I don't want that.
I'm sharing this because I think that testimony's and lessons others have learned can be powerful. And also because my spirit wouldn't let me do anything but type this as soon as I walked in the house. So, today, my prayer for both you and I will be that we do our part and meet God halfway. Because, the Universe wants to give us the desires of our heart - if we would only act right. I for one don't want my life to end up looking or feeling like that car ride did... so I'm going to get it together. And, if you feel like you need to, then I hope you will too.
If peace and blessings manifest with every lesson learned, then I'm looking forward to being on the other side of this one.